The South Norwalk train rolls by
This place,
Ingrained in my being
My home,
3,000 miles away from here
I have returned,
To all that I have known
The ghost, I left behind,
Has risen
Her soul,
Resides here
She never left,
The tides of these blue waters
She is,
This land
This land,
Is her
All my endings,
And all my beginnings,
Sleep here, in this soil
I am home,
I am here
I am,
Home again
Be playful
Embrace a tree
Laugh with the lizards
Ask the forests questions
Pick up dried yellow leaves
Smell the leaves
Admire the Stellar Jay
Wash your face in the cold stream
Seek silence
Find stillness
Still enough to hear the rhythms of nature
Leave wildflowers for the fairies
Thank the trees
Thank the mountains
Thank Mother Earth
Honor the souls that called this land home
Thank your Mother
Thank your Grandmother
Thank yourself
Honor your ancestors
Transcend time in a candlelit yurt
Share your story with strangers
Howl at the crescent moon
Say a prayer
Put your hands on your heart
Close your eyes
Cry a stream of salty tears
Look towards the light
Bow your head
Listen to the wind
Cherish everything
Remember all the love you came here to give
An opening in time and space.
Access to another dimension.
Here is where I first found you.
Here is where our love was given wings to fly.
A calling to come back to this place.
A calling to set each other free, in love.
Here, is where I will remember you.
Here, is where we trusted all that was meant for the evolution of ours souls.
And as the river of life continues to flow on,
I’ll know where to find you.
You are in my heart, always -
Through time and space.
Tears shed
Enough for a waterfall to live forever
Her river
Green and cursive under the fragile sun
The atlas to her soul at sea
In the opaque waters of a renaissance mind
She has not perished
But a mere revitalization of a severed heart
A fragile opening
In the ripples of time
A gold mirror
Lay beneath the green reeds of the riverbed
The water
Patiently waiting for her eyes to cast beneath the surface
And then she remembers
She is the only one who can see her heart’s reflection
I smile,
As I glide down the alley with a lighter heart and a free mind
The sun,
Casts her orange glow on the sides of the houses as if she is telling me everything will be ok
I glance back,
Saying goodbye to a life that I have once known
I look forward,
And smile to the West
Ripples of my name,
Carved delicately into the yellow lights of the bright horizon
I am here,
I am ready
I surrender my soul to all that is familiar;
Trusting in the magic of the unknown and all that awaits me
Layers shed,
Beyond belief
Who knew things once so simple,
Could become so unnatural to our very being?
But miraculously,
Within one sweet moment of this life,
Change occurs before us
Another layer shed,
A new day begins
Transformation,
Unravels all the parts of ourself we thought would always be ours
Our hearts,
Surrender to the magic of the unknown
Life surprises us,
Our souls awaken
Trusting everything and everyone that was ever meant for us
Layers shed,
Beyond belief
I have never known this amount of stillness
Solitude more palpable than the air that we breathe
Silence unearthed from ancient times
Our ancestors,
Ask us to listen
Is the land that we walk on trying to reveal something?
Have our footprints spoiled the soil?
Did we as a society swing off course?
Are we forced now to go back?
I ask,
What do you see?
What do you hear?
What is the universe telling you?
To move forward
We must look back
We must understand what the world wants us to see
We must listen this time
If not this time,
Will next time be too late?
Then what will our ancestors say?
Or will there be a silence,
Darker than this?
Our beautiful world is closing its doors
Isolated by four walls
Solitude,
An old familiar friend
But she's not leaving this time
Where have the dreams gone?
Is this what true endings look like?
No escape
Nothing to hold onto
The future,
Crying with uncertainty
Her door is shut
When will she reopen?
Where have the dreams gone?
Our world has stopped pulsing
Our energy lives someplace else now
The present is all we have
Will this be our greatest lesson?
Where have the dreams gone?
This music
The Dead’s music
Joy
Laughter
Love
Acceptance
A sense of belonging
Freedom
Euphoria
What matters?
This matters
The past flooding in
Like an old familiar ghost
Souls intertwined
Friends
Lovers
Strangers
All in one
A family
A tribe
A revolution
What matters?
This matters
This music
The Dead’s music
It matters
Your rhythm
Understood
Aligning
With my truest form
My most natural state
Limits tested
Boundaries unspoken
My faith examined
Mind flourishing
Dreams
Inspiration
Reflection
Love
Love lost
Love
Not yet seen
Ideas
Flowering in bloom
The road
Calling my name
Her voice beckons
In the morning light
Reminding me
Of an ever-changing horizon
She is
My muse
My home
She is
My Valentine
The Darro River
Church bells ringing
Lush green ivy
A child’s laugh
This moment
Here and now
Beauty
Stillness
Warmth
The blazing sun
A heart beating wildly
A mind gone silent
Time is obsolete
No past
No future
This moment
Here and now
Freedom
Ecstasy
A soul on fire
God is love
Death of an aching heart
A rising crescent moon
New beginnings
Circling our golden sun
This moment
Here and now
Frozen in time
Flashing before my eyes
This is everything
This is what I’ve been waiting for
I am here
I am now
I am free
If you’re out traveling alone and searchin’ for a home
Just follow your fate and drive to the end of Highway 8
You know where I’ll be
In the heart of O.B.
I wait for things to change
But deep down I know they never will
Because that’s not what you were to me
You were not my peace
You were my chaos
My passion
My heart
You were another life
A life that could not exist in this time and place
A life I no longer live
I may dream of it sometimes
But I think that’s more nostalgia than anything
And there’s this sadness that’s never fully faded
Sadness because I’m mad you couldn’t be better
Mad that you didn’t try harder
Mad that my love wasn’t enough
And after all of it
I’m left with deep and utter disappointment
That haunts me in the quiet places of my mind
Disappointment of a dream that failed us
Unraveling slowly
Piece by piece
Until there was nothing left
But a heart wanting more
And a dream that may never die
We were on the verge of something big
Wrapped up in a daze of love and drugs and confusion and exploration of ourselves
And the city we were falling so deeply in love with
On the brink of madness and genius all at the same time
Ready to go anywhere and take on anything
The world was our oyster
Life glistening with possibility
In this crazy concrete jungle we called home
But most days
We were just high on the music
High on the parties and the people that would soon become our family
Present in our lives
And so in love with the community we had created from nothing
Other than ignoring what our parents told us
And listening to our young and wild hearts instead
We leave the city to find the quiet places that call to us
The wild places that make us feel free
The beauty that makes us feel whole
Our souls glisten here in the daytime
And find a home here in the nighttime
This place reminds us of the simple things
Where the mind moves slow like the butterflies in the fields
And the body feels weightless like the fish in lakes
It is here that we allow ourselves
To live
To breathe
To love
To feel
To reflect
And to find the places that make us feel free
Four walls again
Behind the mask of what’s normal again
The heart knows what it wants
She won’t rest until her voice is heard
Listen to her sweet sounds
For she will never steer you wrong
Be careful when ignoring her subtle whispers
For she’ll be back again
Listen today as if it’s your last
Her voice only gets louder as time grows older
Listen to her now
Listen to her always
She’s the only true voice that must be heard
The only voice to trust
Listen to her now
Listen to her always
Cascading down the walls of life
Eyes peering in each direction
Which way shall I go?
“Which way?” my heart asks
“Which way shall we go?”
The West
Filled with my dreams
The East
The people of my homeland
The North
Is still unknown
And in the South
I would walk alone
Forever looking for a home
In the vast unknown
I know I will find a place
For my soul to call home
Because I have loved many places
And in many places
My heart has found a home
How did I find you?
You were just a spec on a map that we stumble upon during our journey West
Your name was Luna Valley and you were magic
We drove through your whispy golden fields
As we saw a sign called Springerville that reminded us of home
We felt connected to you even though we didn’t know you
Where did you come from Luna Valley?
Who gave you your wild and precious name?
Will we ever see you again?
You were quiet, but beautiful
Strong, but subtle
Raw and untouched by the hands of men
You were Lamar Valley
And you were glorious
In every way nature should be
Rapid blue rivers
Giant green trees
Majestic mountains for as far as the eye could see
You were the postcard in my dreams
Wild and free
The way nature intended us to be
I love how the road sparkled with glass
As we drove down Beach Road forgetting about the past
I love how the yellow lights shined in the harbor
To reflect your souls beauty onto the water
I love how the sun hit the fields in the park
After we were told to come home before dark
I loved how you simply smiled at me
When I asked you, “Why is this life such a mystery?”
I loved the way you loved me
Because when we were sitting under that tree
You paused and gently said to me
“Honey, you are the only one who is meant for me”
Soaring through the unknown
It wanders into the depths of the soul
Releasing feelings we did not know
It leaves a mark that never lets go
Becoming an invisible thread
And connecting those who know
It ties many hearts together
With an eternal feeling some may never know
Shared memories of a space in time
With pure happiness and an open mind
You forget everything and leave it all behind
Feel the sounds you once heard before
By touching the invisible thread
For it can never disappear
It’s all in your heart
And all in your head
Wild and free
The Golden State speaks to me
Beauty beaming through every space
I never want to leave this place
Sun drenched strips of Pacific Highway
The wind is blowing my way
Darkness in the distance and palm trees on my side
This is where I spread my wings to fly
I forgive you
Because I loved you
Because you loved me
Because we loved each other
I forgive you
Because resentment feeds the pain
Because a broken heart must heal if it wants to move forward
I forgive you
Because we were friends first
Before we were lovers
Because when we were good
We were untouchable
I forgive you
Because we shared a home together
Because we shared a life together
I forgive you
Because it will set my soul free
Because it will set your soul free
I forgive you
Because I loved you
When you’re missing me
You can find me in that place that’s hidden deep within the depths of your dreams
That timeless place where you and I are one
The only place where you and I were ever free
Speak to me through the lyrics of our favorite songs
And the quotes of our favorite novels
And through the places we dreamt of when we were sleeping under a canopy of stars
Forever speak to me this way
Because this is only way our love will grow
And this is the only way our love knows no end
The moon and me
We’re destined you see
We met when I was very young
You told me you were a friend of the sun
You said, “Just look up, you’re not alone
I will always be your home”
You stayed by my side
Even when I told you I thought this world was one big lie
You said, “That’s silly you see, look at me
I control the tides and help you sleep
You feel my energy all the way from your head
Down to your feet
For this life cannot be a lie
You are one of the many who believe I am more than just an object in the sky
You are never alone
You will always have me”
We are destined you see
The moon and me
As the big orange sun was setting over the Pacific
I thought of you
As the gentle blue clouds faded into the horizon
I thought of you
As the calm waves crashed into the crystal sands below
I thought of you
As I looked around at the all the smiling faces
I wish I saw you
In the passing of time
You haven’t left our mind
We can never forget
The love you have left
When we hear the music play
We can’t stay away
It reminds us of a time
When we could forget everything and leave it all behind
We know you're not far
Your just another angel in a star
Until we meet again
Remember that we’ll be loving you until the very end
I'm the first to say I love you
As we slip out of each other's arms
In another city, in another year
We dip in and out of this fantasy world
Where you and I are free to be
Yet it's still not enough for me
I try to understand why you put up a front
But our love should be enough
Why do you not share all the things you feel?
Why are you scared to be vulnerable with me?
It’s just me
Standing beside you without judgment and only love
I want your openness and honesty
Because I love you
And not just some of you
But I love all of you
I always have
Let go
So I can let go too
So we can be free together
If you care for me as much as you say you do
Share those feelings with the world
Tell them that you love me unconditionally
Tell them that I am your women
Speak the truth as if it's the only words you've ever known
Because without them you can't breathe in the air
And you can't know me without knowing your own truth
I give you my heart
And I give you my soul
I always have
And always will
But sometimes I don't feel the same love in return
Where is the love hiding?
Is it hidden between a place of vulnerability and whats real?
I have loved you for a long time
And my love for you is unwavering
Let me see all your true colors
Because we all have flaws
But that's what makes us beautiful
The imperfections
The mistakes
The brokenness
The heartache
The dirt
The dust
The nitty gritty truth
That's what makes us human
And that's what connects us to one another
That's all I've ever wanted
I want the truth
Always and forever
Can you give that to me?
Can you give into me?
Can you tell me what it is that truly you want?
Because without this
I am lost
Without this
We are lost
Show me your truth
Show me what lies beneath
I dreamt a dream long ago
That life would be beautiful and go by slow
Dreaming of what could be
But for reality is what holds us back
I wish I could grab onto time
And never look back
The way you teach us to be still
In a world filled with so much chaos
The way your presence is a comfort to us
When all else fails us
The way your eternal silence
Teaches us how to be better listeners
The way you always watch over us
Without judgement and only love
The way your smooth like craters
Can’t help us but dream that life may exist outside this galaxy
And because every night when the sun goes down
And the stars come out
You illuminate your electric light onto this earth
And teach us all that even in our darkest days
We must shine on
A distant memory
Of a stolen place in time
This Island will forever be in my mind
With your wooden benches
And sandy beaches
This is the place I will love you to pieces
Will meet here again one day
I’ll see you at the Wonder Wheel and say
“I never left, I just hopped off the ride; let’s be together for one last tablet in time”